Currently Blossoming

So I get off in half an hour. I’m debating on whether I’m going to the gym or not. It’s a rainy lazy day and I’ve been at work since this morning. I’d rather workout before work tomorrow but that makes no sense. Hmmm what should I do? I’m getting lazy.

Sister, bf, bf’s bff, why you no respond to my texts?

Lol I feel so alone when I send multiple texts at once and no one responds. I’m just being goofy anyway.

It’s weird how you can grow to love people more. Specifically my mother. I don’t call her enough nor do I make an effort of seeing her alot. But when I randomly think about her I smile and get a little excited that she does exist. At some point she wasn’t present in my life. I don’t want to miss that opportunity to love her while she is here.

Must go to the gym today and get my energy back up. My real motivation came from a coworker who saw me in a dress the other night. She’s like wow look at you’re arms! Because I have some muscle definition. Not alot! But some.

I just love the fact that I’m gonna look great in my bikini this summer.

How do you train yourself to think less? That probably sounds weird but its the reason I get really anxious and freak out sometimes. Why can’t I just simplify everything and not care and just do me?

I’m seriously trying to get in that chill state of mind and it is very difficult!

There are some things I really hate about life that I just need to accept.

Good vibes…good vibes :)